...But realized you weren't you just thought you were.... Ya exactly. I have thought a lot of things about myself but being a "Christian" I knew I was because I had prayed the prayer and lived the life. I have been very active in the church, teach my children the way and do very Christian things. Until I realized that I was a religious Christian doing just what everyone else does. And in that realizing I was disobeying the first 2 commandments. SO CRAZY. Ya I was surprised too. I realized fear religion and lust (of the world and it's seductive way of sucking you into what seems ok) had really held me captive. See the problem was that I looked and sounded great. But I was a coward on the inside not really being who I was called to be because of the things I allowed at the same level of God. Instead of putting Him first. Like truly first. Not fear (including insecurities because that's what they are .Fear) or myself or the facade of religion because that will stop you.
Running yesterday was a lightbulb moment. It turned on ...how revolutionary. Lol .well not really that's what we expect of working lightbulbs. Anyway I realize I was not living by faith and that I was a very timid cowardly soldier in the army of God. This is huge!! Because that is unacceptable seriously. That kind of Christian is worthless in this end time army. He who endures to the end will be saved. The fear of not making it to the end was about to become my reality ... But not anymore the lightbulb is on and bright. The scriptures are being illuminated and life transforming encounters are more frequent. I'm loving it. And now able to live it real what a great motto. Livin it real. But actually. :)
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